i'm bored

i just have french final today. it wasn't that bad. i just have to answer 100 multiple choice and 10 short answers and make a letter to pen pal. viola! c'est pas mal. but one thing is i'm not gonna be at that class again. c'est ammusant ou terrible? idk. i love french so much. i love how they speak. aniweis now i'm alone. i couldn't find somebody to talk to. where are you people??? i looked for sheena but she was no where in my sight. then the others? they have classes. je suis triste.

by the way, idk why i feel so sick if i do not talk to somebody. it's like if i wanna say something but i can't or afraid then i decided not to talk, i will be so mad to my self. i feel regret then so on, it freaks me out. but idk why i still keep this up till now. oh come on ve! speak up! i know you hate it when you have to be silent. just say whatever in your mind, they wouldn't mind to listen to you. yeah,actually that's true. today after i locked my mouth up for like an hour then i talk to somebody, i feel so happy. i know that's weird if you find happiness by talking to somebody. but it's me. it's me. it's' not you.

and oh yeah, i gotta make a plan for my graduation party. mom told me to do so. i just told her that im gonna invite my friends over. actually that's not what graduation party supposed to be. they usually make an open house, then people can come whenever they want. i just not feel comfortable with this, beside it will make me so tired for serve people in one full day, i just don't have that many friends like my friends do to be invited. no offense, i just have been here for a year, that's ok with the fact that i don't have that many friends. i do have friends tho. yea, that's why i think if i have a party in certain time is better than doing open house. i hope people are able to make my party. i just worried if they have gotten invited by their other friends and they couldnt make it. i will be so sad knowing that they actually what i called friends from thousands people who is going to niskayuna high school, not going to my party.

hey, sheena is here! lol. she was questioning me how to open facebook at school, actually we are not allowed to open certain website. and school usually blocks them. but i know how to break the wall and the security. hehe. other student do too, so it's common "criminal" at my school. just wait till the "guard" (idk what they are called) yell at us and make us go away from the lab. i got it once. whatever..

and omigosh! 17 days left! and sheena left me too, she has class now. ok then i'm still so bored.
au revoir!